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Marriage & Divorce
When I was 19, I
began dating a girl from the gym that I was working at. Though
she was not particularly concerned with Christian ideas when we
met, she was very attracted to my beliefs. We dated for two
years and got married. She professed in many ways to be a
Christian and was very active in our church as well as other
Christian ministries. For a long time she was very consistent in
having personal devotions with God. About 8 months after we got
married, her family managed to get her job with a very large
company. She got the job primarily because her mother worked in the
personnel department. She started as a “temp” making about seven
dollars an hour. It was not long however that she made a
permanent position, which paid $60,000 a year. At 21 years of
age, she was making close to $80,000 per year. She was working
12-hour shifts as well as overtime. She was one of two women
working with 15 men. Her ideas about life and marriage changed
rapidly. She still liked me as a person but was not interested
in being married. There were many other things that she wanted
to do outside of marriage and needless to say she asked for a
divorced. This was perhaps the most painful and difficult time
of my life. Though I prayed to God earnestly, I did not feel as
though God cared what was happening to me.
It was a very
depressing time and I had to struggle through many faith issues.
I learned that no matter how much I prayed, God would not
control other people's decisions even when they affected me.
What he did do is make for many great things that would help me
through these hard times. My career helped me to move on and
think about other things. Though God did not intervene in my
first wife's decision to separate, He did take care of me. Not
long after our separation I was offered a job in Macon Ga. as
partner in the business. The excitement of the job helped
distract me from the pain of divorce. I know that even though
we must go through much pain, God does not let us go through it
without help. He made it possible for me to make it through
that tough time.
I did not date for
two years. Actually for the next 8 years I would only seriously
date one girl and that was only for about six months. I knew
that the relationship was probably not a good idea. She lived 8
hours away, she was much younger than me, and we did not have
much in common. After a few fun but misleading months I called
off the relationship. Though I had been honest about my
commitment level, it still ended up being a messy break up. I
was very remorseful about ever having even started a
relationship that I was never truly serious about. I decided to
not allow this to happen again. Four more years went by. I
never felt serious about any of the relationships that came
along or either they were not serious about me. I struggled
with whether or not I was being too picky. The number one thing
that I wanted was a relationship with someone whom I knew would
take as deep a spiritual journey as I could ever want. I did
not want to build a marriage on unstable ground. I had learned
this lesson already. I was very persistent for many years. But
being single wore me down over the years and eventually and
reluctantly I gave up. I wanted to believe but my
loneliness and
solitude got the best of me. I figured if God really cared he
would have to save me. I was ready to take measures into my own
hands and hope for the best. By this I mean I was going to
change my standards and not worry about spirituality.
At 30 I met a new
friend. He helped me "get my groove back". He taught me how to
dress again and pumped me up with confidence. I have much to
thank him for. He indeed was the spark that led to my
relationship with my future wife. At this point I had already
opened Columbia Gymnastics Academy and my friend was leasing
some space from me to begin his own business. Since I had
somewhat given up on meeting the perfect Christian girl, I
opened myself up to the idea of dating girls without knowledge
of their spiritual background. One of the girls that my friend
was training caught my eye. It was my friend’s nature to
instigate the relationship. When he let her know of my interest
her first response about the man she would eventually marry was:
"Well I don't know, he's kind of old". I was 8 years older to
be exact. We look back now after years of marriage and laugh
about that all the time.
In summary, it
turned out that the first girl that I dated with the mindset of
giving up on God ended up being the perfect woman I had been
waiting on for all those years. I would never recommend this
approach to dating and do not feel it to be wise to romantically
date someone before knowing if they are spiritually compatible.
But I have to praise God in this situation. My feeling as I
look back is that God had been hearing my prayers. He had mercy
on me in my distress. Even though I had given up on him, he had
not given up on me. I know that he knew that I had been
pleading for years for Him to answer this prayer and send me a
Christian woman. After only a couple of careless dates I
realized that I had stumbled upon God's blessing in disguise.
Our first “date” was actually at a bar over drinks. It was not
ideal for where you might think Christians should meet together
for a social time. I was definitely under some non-Christian
influences at the time. At the end of the night we allowed
ourselves some “quiet time” to explore which way the
relationship would go. Consider that I was 30 years old and had
not had a romantic relationship with a girl for at least six
years. Any man would be at His wits end. As we proceeded
Melody asked me one question that brought everything quickly
into perspective: "Why Me"? She wanted to know why this highly
recommended stand up Christian guy was interested in her (and
behaving rather “un-Christian). This was a very humble while at
the same time a very witty question. One that would help assure
that my intention was pure. I proceeded to try to answer that
question as we discussed everything about ourselves over the
next eight hours. It was at that time that I knew God had just
performed a modern day miracle. He had created a great life for
me through my career while at the same time expecting me to
endure much pain in single life. In the end of that chapter
however, he took it all off my shoulders with the blessing of
Melody. It is through trials such as these that we grow to have
faith. For those who trust and endure and then receive blessing
discovers the true treasure in life: a loving omnipotent God
who does care about our every being. Faith comes through
monitored pain relieved by God. Not only relief, but a
showering of blessing that would have me willing to go back
through all of the pain again to finally get where God wanted me
to be.
Melody and I had
everything in common. On the surface consider the following
similarities: we are both Christian and desire an intimate
relationship with God, we are both Psychology majors and have a
big interest in behavior modification, we both have a
competitive gymnastics background and love the business, we both
are left-handed, and have very flat feet. She and I are two
peas in a pod. And this sole blessing of my wife makes me one of the
richest men alive. Fortunately for all mankind God has enough
to make us all rich.
Eight years had
passed since my divorce. Though being single until I was 30
years old was no picnic, I can honestly say today that I would
not hesitate to go through the pain again if that is what it
would take to find Melody. While I was single there was no way
to know that I would indeed find my soul mate. The uncertainty
was torturing and required consistent faith over a long period
of time. Though I was ready to give up on God in this area of
my life, God must have had mercy on me and decided to bless me
anyway. I have to interpret this as testimony that God is
loving, understanding, and cared was what happening to me.
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